I KNOW I'M FABUL0US ♥

theres a time & a place. this isnt either.

2006-10-27T04:54:09Z

Things just keep on getting more interesting.

I'm Little Red Riding Hood for halloween & I look like a hooker.

Working is going alright. I can't wait to get paid though. I have to work tomorrow night 5-9 and then Saturday 2-8.
Saturday is also Moon Fest which i'm going to dressed like a hooker in my Little Red Riding Hood costume which my mom thinks is cute. (is there something wrong with that?? haha)

As for now, I'm ready for bed.

right now hes probably up behind her with a pool stick shown her how to shoot a combo

2006-10-22T01:52:22Z

Who knows whats going on these days. I surely dont. I guess I would say that I'm happy at the moment.

School is going fine. Work is going well. No complaints there.

So this new guy is interesting, like we have goofy conversations, and I feel like I can be myself around him and not be looked at like "whaaaa?". But, what I want to know is : does he or does he not have a girlfriend. He hasn't told me, and I haven't bothered to ask. I mean, should I ask? Would it be awkward? He's just fun to be around - and gives weak back massages - but I can settle. What to do? We're studying for our Astronomy test together. And when I was at his place the other day, we were laying in his bed watching tv and (I decided to leave since he mentioned he was going to take a nap) we hugged goodbye but it was sort of awkward because he was laying down and I wasnt and when we disengauged from the hug, our gazes lingered and he just smiled like one of those sly smirky cheeky smiles, I slid off the bed and left. What do I make out of that? I guess we'll see how 'studying' goes - whenever we do do that.

Peace.

chigga whaaaaat

2006-10-13T02:46:05Z

I'm leaving for Orlando tomorrow around 1:00pm ish. I cant wait. Erin and I are riding with ashley's mom up and down, which should be pretty darn cool.
I'm packed. Well, i've BEEN packed since..yesterday. haha
I got ditched in my astronomy class today by mr.wonderful - ugh it was so boring. I think i'm gonna step out of my shy shell and tell him that class sucks without him.. should I? Yes? No? maybe? (feedback thanks)
I cant wait for this weekend
I need to stop spending money. Like really bad
I want to get my nails done, but I dont want to fuck them up again.
I cant wait to party hardy in Orlando. YAY
WOOHOO

LETS GO!!!

Ugh gotta wake up semi early tomorrow to LEAVE!!

PEACE BABES

Just let me worry about the mistakes I want to make

2006-10-06T03:35:15Z

You dont make a difference now.
I'm good on my own.
There might be somebody new.
Whatcha gonna do about that boiiii - haha
I'm hoping things work out for the good.
Other than that, school is going well. I'm passing all of my classes. YAY. I got a really good revsion of my paper from my Prof. So, that pretty much made my wednesday. Also, work is going well. Its soo easy. I basically just sit there for hours and watch tv. Occasionally i'll get a customer..but thats rare.
So i'm pretty stoked for Halloween Horror Nights..even though emily and I dont know how exactly we're getting there. But accidently, emily reserved a rent-a-car. Its 115.20 for the weekend and its a Dodge Neon or "something like it" so we might be taking that. However, I dont want to spend the 60 dollars on a damn car lol. Oh well' more later when I know exactly whats going on I suppose.

if i had to choose btwn him and day light i'd be one nocturnal sun of a gun

2006-10-02T01:49:10Z

sgjhdfjghdfjh
Whyd you have to come up and talk to me.
Do you have any idea what that did?!
Talk about ruining my I'm-not-going-to-talk-to-you streak.
WAY TO GO DOUCHE BAG.
You made my heart race and my face flush.
YA you have that power.
Hopefully you wont figure that out.

justtoogood @ 2006-09-13T19:23:00

2006-09-13T23:54:32Z

Things are good.
I'm good. I'm calmer. I'm putting things behind me. I'm accepting.
But I still get those silly butterflies when hes around / mentioned. So I guess I'm not completely over it yet.
I have a new job! It's "The Tan Factory". Even though I'm totally against fake and bake, I'm working there. Its money. I start training on Friday bright an early 8:30am - 2:00pm.

I really should be doing my paper now.

Okaaaaay.

lets go! right now! in my truck bed..

2006-09-09T05:40:35Z

AHAHA

She got fired.

That made my weekend.
Thanks Ralph!!

good to see ya but hey i gotta GO

2006-09-08T01:42:04Z

Teeheehee
I cant wait for Sunday.

Lisa was serious good thing you stopped laughing.
Get tested babe.
Who knows where thats been.

heres a little p.s
dont come crawling back to me, because as for now you are just as filthy as she is.

because of YOU i wanted to throw up.

2006-09-06T05:42:35Z

Lets set the scene shall we?!?!

Im happy laughing with emily walking through the door.
I look into the living room to see whos watching tv.
Then I see you.
You ON HER.
YOU looked at me.
I wanted to THROW UP.

1. Dont even THINK about coming near me.
2. Dont even attempt to talk to me.
3. I hate the fact that I still dont hate you. I just hate what youre doing.
4. WHAT THA HELL is wrong with you. ARE you DUMB?!
5. You disgust me.
6. SEE if i CARE anymore.

FUCK YOU & YOUR NASTY SLUT

swing batta swing

2006-09-05T00:29:16Z

Yeah thats right, I did ignore you all day. And it was hard.
You might want to ask your sister how to cover up that nasty ass hoe's hicky she gave you. Its not attractive.
I do have to admit, it was hard being cold and mean to you. But you have no idea how you diserve it.

I dont know what to think about you anymore. Clear that up would ya?

How Dare YOU

2006-09-04T04:26:08Z

FUCK YOU.
You have no idea how much you hurt me.
Who the fuck do you think you are to just lead me on like that flirt with me like all the time and then go off and be with some other girl who isnt all that attractive. You did the one thing that I HATE the most. YOU disappointed me. There probably wont ever be any redemption what-so-ever. Youre such a fake. Dont come near me.
I hate that i liked you.
I hate that i dont really hate you at all.
Youre making me say "hate" and I hate it.
Why.
Erase my number from your phone and forget i ever gave it to you.
I hate you. And the sad part of all of this, you have NO idea how much you hurt me.
So fuck you.
You made me cry.

flagulence just admit you have it. thats your personal problem

2006-08-30T22:00:38Z

Becareful with what you do
Becareful with what you dont say
Becareful with what you do say

This girl likes you. Try not to hurt her.

I cant understand

2006-08-27T03:24:28Z

Week Recap:

Sunday : Worked until close. Got poured on. Oh and my car battery died. So I had to yell across the parking lot to see if someone had jumper cables. Luckily a lifeguard did.

Monday : First day of school. I got my room numbers mixed up. Apparently AL246 doesnt exist. My room number that I was supposed to go to was AL346. That made me 10 minutes late. Luckily this random girl was nice and helpd me. Without her, I probably woulda missed the entire class.

Tuesday : I get a bubble in my tire and the traction decides to fly off while i'm on I-95. Talk about scary. I was 1/2 a mile from my exit. So these mexican guys had stopped bc their "truck died" and changed my tire. My dad finally got there..and told me "oh since they fixed your tire you should of left , then i would of known you were okay" - parking at school is like .. playing frogger in the middle of NYC traffic. Then I practically ran across campus not knowing where im going for my Psychology class - so after asking a guy who appeared to work at the school he pointed me in the RIGHT direction. And I was actually on time.

Wednesday : Everything was going smoothly. I visited Mike Goodwin and Chong in their dorm (their building is right next to my english class convienant.) and that was pretty cool. I like their room. Got to class. Had a good class.. I'm on my way just dandy and then just as i get off of 95 about to merge into traffic on Lantana road..the CAR DIED. Like it stopped..and wouldnt turn on. Then this State Trooper pulls up behind me and was like "ma'm what seems to be the problem here?" - I actually said "are you serious?! Im STUCK in the middle of the off ramp of 95 and uh obviously my car WONT START. I called my mechanic and he told me to lift the hood and let it cool off so there." State Trooper says " well im gonna have to push you outta traffic so you dont cause a problem". He pushed me to the gas station. My dad came to my rescue (again) and I had to ZOOM over to PBCC to get to my math class. I was 35 minutes late for that. And he professor made it a point to get to being tardy when i got there.

Thursday : Nothing exciting happened.

Friday : had english homework and didnt know it was due. way to go.

Its good to hear your voice.

2006-08-19T15:37:25Z

This is a very emotional weekend for everyone. We're all seperating and going off to college. Going in our different directions. Some are going to the same place, but starting a new chapter of life, some are staying local and then going off somewhere. I am not ready to see my closest friends leave. It's really hard - you would think "they'll be back soon so dont fret about it" but, its going to be really weird on like the weekends when you want to call someone and then realize "Oh I cant call so & so because they're not around." Thats sad. I'd rather not think about it, but when 97% of your best friends are leaving..you cant really ignore it. I might not even get to see my best friend of 12 years before she goes off to college - I find that really really saddning. I'm not ready for this ginormous change. Cant we just go back to highschool one last time just to relive the moments that we had?
But the good thing is - when they do come back they know they'll be welcomed with open arms. Now and forever.

Is he being a tease or playing hard to get? I dont know and personally, I dont like it. If you like me say so. Confusing a girl who Likes You isnt a brilliant idea.

and she said

2006-08-17T22:48:42Z

So now he knows. and the results from that was sorta disappointing. so he doesnt want a girlfriend at the moment - thats understandable - but i was kinda expecting that hed say something to erin along the lines of "oh i like her too .. so thats cool" or "shes a cool girl but I dont want a girlfriend at the moment" type of thing. But thats not what I got. So now i think im going to wallow in my towel and listen to sad music.
Boys are too much. When will things work out in the way that you want them to - like having mutual feelings. But wait. isnt flirting a type of mutual feeling - do correct me if im wrong.

for youu

2006-08-14T21:29:58Z

This summer has gone by so incredibly fast. I start my freshman year of college next monday. And all the high school kids start school wednesday. How crazy.
I'm ready, but not ready at the same time to start school. I really want to fix my schedule so that my english class is only two days a week instead of m w f. But it doesnt look like that is going to happen - how unfortunate. Something to deal with I suppose. Also, I have no idea whether or not I have bright futures or not . Mrs. Middleton and Mrs.Debor said I did when I talked to them and that was at the beginning of the summer. So hopefully I actually go have it and that it goes to FAU so I dont have to pay for shit. That'd be awsome + some of the left over money would go into MY bank account. AH-MAZING - I can put it towards..well maybe an apartment and traveling the world with erin katie and Emily after college is over.
The whole boy situation isnt becoming any clearer. Its just more confusing - well its been the same. Yeah I gave him my number but he hasnt called me. Not a surprise. Then jaci, i dont know how I go about "asking him out" dude seriously. I dont think I can actually do that. Its just weird. Like i told you. I dotn think Im actually ready for that phase. I mean we barely talk as it is. Yeah I may be at the house ALOT and thats that.. There doesnt seem anything spectacular about that issue. Where to go from here. He starts school on wednesday. So there goes seeing him at work and stuff.. Unless I go to the house which i probably will do often. AHHHHH I JUST DONT KNOW.
Today went to erins in the pouring rain, went to duffys, target (got more boxers), playing tennis, then watching without at paddle since she hasnt seen it yet. Other than that, I dont know whats going on. Go with the flow i suppose

I think we should do a hand check...

2006-08-09T05:23:55Z

Daytona was great. A well needed vacation minus the stupid stuuuupid drama - totally uncalled for. And definetly unneeded. Other than that it was great. The hotel was really nice. Prettier than the one in Cocoa Beach. Honestly, I think that daytona is kinda ghetto - well just the night life. Theres alotta scary bums that follow you around and ask "do you wan to take a survey? Its free" then continue to follow you. Creepy - yeah. But throughout the drama and the crazy bums that would follow us, we all had a great time.
Going back to work was alright i suppose. I didnt miss it at all. But the good thing was - i found out that terry isnt coming back for 2 weeks. WODERRFUL. That made my day. I closed on sunday and didnt wind up leaving until like.. 7:45. I seriously hate people who think they can hang out at the rapids till like 8 - dude seriously, we close at 7 for a reason. But whatever cant help the stupid people.

ok jaci this is the part where you need to read :
> ok you already know what happened at work. that was fine - you know how i said "i'll see you...sunday? or if i go to your house?"
well i went to the house tonight (tuesday) and alotta people were there (maxo poggio kim emily ashley etc.) so he decided to be social and hung out with us.
>> Scratch typing it all out - im definetly calling you tomorrow. Or call me. The house number preferbly.

what it is yo'

2006-08-02T02:51:55Z

OH so it was pretty much Rapids Gone Wild on Monday night.
Best time at that place..ever.
So we got to ride the rides the WRONG way and with the WRONG flotation devices. It was so much fun, but at the same time dangerous. Luckily I didnt fall off my tube or go flying somewhere .. but I did get sucked into Big Green or whatever its called by myself - well, with the wrong chain of people on mats. Climbing the stairs back to back to back to back showed me how out of shape I am. I was definetly winded by the time I hit the top around the 3rd time. So after they shut down the rides it turned into a huge dance party. Well, all the girly girl lifeguards were like "uch im so leaving" and left. Whatever they missed out on raunchy fun. I would definetly have to say that the Ticket mastaaz definetly started the dance party off. WE are amazing - and we had the most energy out of every group. So we danced,and danced..and danced some more. I had a good night. To say the least. haha. I dont know what it is about dem boy lifeguards. They're just - well i dont think theres a word really to describe it - well just one imparticular.

This weekend is DAYTONAAAAA
I cant wait Fuck working! Its summa time bih.
This better be amazing.
BRING
IT
ON.

homie don play that

2006-07-29T16:05:06Z

Since it's been awhile, this is probably going to be long..

Orientation wasnt half as bad as I thought it was going to be. Luckily, when I pulled up to park, I saw mike goodwin and chong. So that made things alot better for me. I wasnt just there by myself. I met a couple people - they seem alright. I thought it was really funny that they didnt know where/what Palm Beach Gardens was. They've been south for way too long. The school doesnt really seem that big. Everything seems to be in the same general area - except for the gym which is like, across the street. But thats only a minor thing. I registered for some of my classes - but im waiting for a good time slot for Theater appreciation or Dance appreciation. We'll see if that happens anytime soon. Oh also at orientation - they were practically passing out condoms to everyone. That must of freaked out the parents. lol.

Work has been alright. I mean, its nothing special to begin with. Monday is our company party - the beginning of august is the compay party when the season is over in october? Interesting. Whatever. So it looks like i'm going to that. We'll see how that goes. Around 200 kids, breaking the rules and having the park to ourselves. I hope the food from Splash Grill is good.

Jaci, I think "whats his face" still loves his girlfriend. Thats what his away message said. So, maybe thats why he never called me or doesnt talk to me now. I suppose thats a good reason - but thanks for telling me. Appreciate it. Bitch.

I loved the movie John Tucker Must Die. To you who didnt like it..you suck.

Thats all. work tomorrow tuesday wednesday - ew.-

They saaay

2006-07-23T18:19:38Z

So, I'm home. I guess I'm happy that i'm home but, id perfer to be in New York still. I hate leaving that place. Its like, where i'm supposed to tbe I guess. So, our flight out is at the crack of dawn. Literally. Scheduled take off : 6:40am. Thats insane. But I landed at home after transferring flights in North Carolina at like, 11:40ish.

So, this week, I have to figure out when I work - seeing that I have FAU orientation thursday and friday. Boy oh boy, i cant wait for that. I'll just be lost in boca. Which reminds me I have to get directions and figure out where to go. Sheesh. This is going to be soo much fun I cant wait.

Well. I think this is it.
I'm home all day monday if anyone feels like hanging ouut.

Peace ouut.

Twas' a daaark and stoorrrmy night..

2006-07-19T02:52:06Z

No but fo' real. Its really dark, annd theres like noo outside power / lights. This house is just old enough to creak and make it sound like people walking around to creap you out. Makes you love how the houses are connected. NOT. You hear everything. For example, right now..theres indian people in the house to my left, which is actually behind me. I hate it. But cant do anything about it. Sheesh gotta love New York. And its storming like maad crazy outside. THANK GOODNESS maybe the heat will go bye bye and I can stop sweating. Ive seriously never sweated like this before in my life. Not even kidding. I seriously think that I've lost like 5lbs just out of sitting here in the dark online sweating my ass off. Best diet ever I'd say.. haha

Anyway, its seriously just too hot to function. I didnt do shit today. Okay, i went to trade fair (the grocery store) on the corner to pick up some things..juice corn muffins bottle of water.. And we went out for Pizza for dinner tonight. ONLY to find that Albas was closed because they didnt have any power (pissed) and we had to walk to 31st st. just to get pizza. And the traffic lights were out. Not a safe thing to happen in new york. No traffic lights = mayhem.
Hopefully the power in the subway station starts working again otherwise I cant go to the museum and play tourist. :-( Dangit. On the brighter side I might not have to miss the Ellen Degerous show!! I love morning talk shows. When you only have basic cable to work with you begin to watch and like The View, Tony Danza, Ellen, Maury, NOT MONTEL HES A LOSER, Jerry Springer (only if its a good episode).

Other than that, im doing good. Ive had a clear mind the entire trip. Yes having the computer has contaminated it. But I sorta needed my fix. I still havent figured out how to use the wireless internet..so if anyone knows how..HOLLA. (whats a network key??)

Peace out homefry.

Its a two way mirror and you cant blame me

2006-07-17T02:35:20Z

Well, there really isnt much to say.
Went to Aunt Lindas house for a little bbq and it turned out to be pretty good. It was jus the usual family there - me, mom,nanna,uncle james,lauren,pat,anthony,uncle michael & aunt linda. I think we all had a good time even though there were awkward silences before and during dinner. But after was alotta fun, thats usually how things are with them.
I'm still sick, and hating it. I have the worst sinus headaches. Not even kidding. And I really hate blowing my nose - its starting to hurt.
When I get home I have to call American Eagle to set up an interview. I dont know how im going to manage working there AND the rapids. I dont want to leave the rapids, and I dont want to work EVERYDAY and at night...soo we'll have to see about that .
I love my new computer. Its amazing. Even though my dad isnt so thrilled that I got it here..and for $600. Whatever deal with it mk?!

Tomorrow im going into manhattan - to shop. I have two more visits to the city, one for canal street and the other to the Metropolitan Museum of Art. I hope its a good museum. We'll see right?

Peace out lovies

Hold that New York minute

2006-07-15T19:28:55Z

New York is pretty good. On our way here we switched flights in North Carolina..and we were stuck on the plane for 2hours with NO AC because of the bad weather in Ny. That was horrible. Pretty much the most suckiest part of the flight. Other than that, everything is going fine. Did a little shopping already, but not much .. thats next week. And I might be going to the Metropolitan Museum of Art. That should be cool. But tomorrow, we're going to Aunt Lindas house for a BBQ I cant begin to imagine them bbq-ing. Hahah it'll probably be either store bought or catered. How sad.

OH lets not forget to mention, i'm getting sick. I woke up this morning with a horrible sore thoroat and only one nostril to breathe out of. GREAT! Bring on the meds.

im ready to leave give me a break would ya?

2006-07-10T22:29:17Z

It hasnt gotten better.
Had a rediculously horribly pathetic conversation last night.
Thought a simple message would..ya know help. But Not.
Dont want to delete it.

AND ITS NOT MY FAULT. He'll be missing out - not me.

"you just have to go after what you want
&& if it doesn't want you back the so be it
it doesn't deserve you anyways.." - POINT well put.

I cant wait until I board that flight. Throw on my headphones and drift away. I'll probably wind up being a loser and crying, but thats just how I am. Thats how I release. If I had a punching bag or a gym membership - that would be different.

justtoogood @ 2006-07-09T19:04:00

2006-07-09T23:05:11Z

Work should not be this exhausting. I just stand there and do nothing. Occasionally i'll stamp a hand or 50, but thats about it. Sitting down inside and selling tickets doesnt take energy at all.

I cant wait for my vacation.

oh and he still hasnt called. 2 days. maybe im just over reacting. Hopefully..this gets better.